The name of the Lord is a strong tower; the righteous run to it and are safe — Proverbs 18:10
it’s easy to drown ourselves in our present situation.
its easy to go through life without ever enjoying the beauty of every moment.
its easy to see the divine when everything in our life is going on great, however i have learned that no matter how painful our situation is, there is something divine and beautiful to thank God for.
to trust when everything else seems so dead is the ultimate sign of faith.
dare to stop and smell the roses
“Then Jesus answered, “Woman you have great faith! Your request is granted.” and her daughter was healed from that very hour. — Matthew 15:28
sometimes there is nothing like receiving a beautiful letter from someone you really care for. let me share an email i received from my dear cousin who is to me the brother i never had.
Dear Loving Sister,Its a while since we communicated,but a mist all the challenges of life,we are managing. God has been faithful and we have all the reasons to be grateful.Well its a real challenge for this generation to live a Godly life,but I thank God he has kept you in his goodness.This is a time when the law of God is trodden under-foot; and the great question is, Who will stand for the truth? God is calling for volunteers. Who will respond?Those who study to see how near they can live to the world and yet gain heaven, will come just near enough to be shut out from heaven. We must accept the suffering part of religion if we would sit down with the Suffering One upon his throne. When Christ has done so much for us, shall we refuse to serve him? Shall we not become co-laborers with him in the work he came from heaven to do? There is a great work to be done in the cities, and who is ready to engage in it? Christ says, “Ye are the light of the world.” “Let your light so shine before men, that they may see your good works, and glorify your Father which is in heaven.” If we will separate from the world, and renounce its sinful practices, God has pledged Himself to receive us, and to work with our efforts.Shall we not consecrate ourselves to God without reserve? Christ, the King of glory, gave himself a ransom for us. Can we withhold anything from him? Shall we think our poor, unworthy selves too precious, our time or property too valuable, to give to Jesus?–No, no; the deepest homage of our hearts, the most skillful service of our hands, our talents of ability and of means,–all are but too poor an offering to bring to Him who was slain and has “redeemed us to God by his blood out of every kindred, and tongue, and people, and nation.” Lift him up, my brethren, the Man of Calvary. Lift him up before the people, and by and by he will lift you up to His throne, and crown you with glory, honor, and immortality.My dear, you mean just so much to me.Please keep in touch. Greet my nieces,I hope they are fine and working hard in school.Be blessed.
Gloria Steinem once said “the truth will set you free, but first it will piss you off.” this week i found myself there, as truth pissed me off. It had been a somewhat chaotic day. Facts and pieces of the truth were slowly beginning to find their way to the jig saw puzzle that for weeks I had been trying so dearly to put together.
As I sat down in this place overlooking the hills, on a cold, windy evening watching my friend’s face blend into the skies, as he dared with all his heart to confess to a lie he had repeatedly told me. As he spoke, i felt my heart sink to the bottom of my heart as pain, hurt and deep deep wounds surfaced on my face.
there is nothing like a hurt that hurts slowly but surely.
At first i couldn’t believe everything he was confessing to. i struggled to place this big lie with this oh so dear friend that for weeks i had grown to so so care for. how did this lie come this far? i asked my self, as he proceeded to apologize and almost breaking down to tiny little pieces. i could tell that deep down he hated himself for giving life to this hurtful, wounding lie.
one thing i can say about grace – is its ever amazing ability to forgive that which you would otherwise never forgive. on this cold, windy evening, grace found rest in my heart and by the end of our conversation, my heart was much lighter, eyes much happier and heart oh so relieved by the unloading of a lie he had carried with him all these weeks.
the thing about living an authentic life is not hiding who we are, or what we have done in past lives. its not repeating words of shame to ourselves, and beating ourselves for the wrongs we have done. an authentic life is lived when we embrace our past, and give life to our future. its also for all of us lived when we can forgive others for what wrongs they have done, because as we all know, no one is without sin.
our conversation ended with a big dilemma. this revelation no only impacted myself, but others as well. my friend pleaded oh so desperately that this revelation remain between us, yet that was not a secret i was willing to carry with me the rest of my life.
he knew that prior to this revelation.
i knew the importance of ending this lie in a way that gave all of us the integrity we all claim to have. i knew that like myself, others would feel the hurt of this lie. however no matter how painful this lie was, i knew without a doubt, the truth would eventually set him and everyone free. the truth would give him a chance to start all over again. a chance to build authentic friendships, and enjoy the riches of that. most importantly, i knew that it was not fair to keep this hidden from those that it impacted. it would only be selfish to have this lie kept as it was a lie. to come this far in the road of authenticity, and let fear stop us from going all the way.
as i delivered this news my whole body was shaking like a leaf. i knew i was forgiving, but i wondered if they would be forgiving as well. i wondered how capable they were of hearing this truth. it was only by prayer and the ever wonderful strength of the Lord that i made it through and made it in peace.
since unveiling this lie to others impacted, my friend and i have not spoken since. i struggle with this fact, and wonder if our friendship will ever find the green we need to grow it back. i guess time will tell.
as i sat down yesterday to kind of unload all that had transpired this week, i realized that i have no ill feelings towards him. forgiveness was in fact there way before he ever made truth of this lie. i wish my friend knew that i forgive him. that i carry no hate or unkindness towards him, but rather with all my heart wish him the best that life has to offer.
one thing about living in the dark, is that the enemy then has an opportunity to milk this darkness and make it much more worse than we could ever imagine. and giving more life to a lie so often costs us way more than we could ever dream or imagine.
so its been a couple of days of praying, praying and more praying. praying that in this season, all will be well in the end. and the truth will set all free.
i pray that my friend finds peace in his life to live without shame. to live without guilt. to live without anger. i hope that freedom finds him well and strong enough to take the necessary steps to living an authentic life. to boldly make the changes he needs to make, without any fear and in a mission to dare to live a full and happy life. because i want that so badly for him, and i know we all deserve that. above all i pray that he and all of us, finds the love of God that so desperately wants to live in us, and that we in all our brokenness will one day give Glory to God for freeing us from a life lived in the dark.
its not easy a walk.
authenticity will so often open up past wounds, and sometimes open up scares deep enough to cause you to stop this journey, and instead live a life less than what you were purposed to live.
dare to strive forward. to embrace the goodness and richness that comes from living at our best an authentic life.
until next week, dare to embrace authenticity all the way